Manifesting Dreams

by Kristin Madden

If someone had told me three years ago that I would have everything I wanted, I probably would have laughed in his or her face. After moving twice for my job in environmental chemistry, I had been laid off with no prospects. We needed my salary, and I had no idea who I was if I wasn't a chemist. I was embarrassed to be dependent and unemployed. I was always the strong one who landed on her feet and managed to be successful no matter what. At that point, my feet felt like they were firmly planted in quicksand. Although I always held the belief that what I needed would be there when I needed it, I thought that only meant we wouldn't be out on the street.

The effects of that belief turned out to be very different from what I imagined. My husband ended up with a new job that he loved and that paid him considerably more than the average architect's salary in the area. I began to have some success with writing, something that I had always wanted to do. We even decided that it was time to have a child. Everything was working out. But I still wasn't really happy.
I couldn't just sit home and have a kid. My brain was beginning to atrophy already. Although I had tremendous respect for people who could stay home and raise a family, I knew I was not cut out for it. I held a belief that I needed more. I tried law school, nursing school and massage school. Law school didn't want me, and the other two were things to do since I couldn’t do what I wanted. Was this what life was going to be? What a bummer.

Then Avatar happened. Talk about what you need being there when you really need it. It took me a while to complete the basic course, but I felt completely changed. Old adversaries were suddenly allies. My relationships were simply wonderful. I was having fun, and I had a future to look forward to. I was in love with the idea of being home with my child, and I was going to deliver Avatar! In my journal I wrote, "I haven't felt this confident, happy, and excited about the now and the future since I decide to go to college after only three years of high school. Everything is possible and I really like myself again." I knew who I was, and it was far beyond any job-identity.

But I still wanted more. I wasn't where I wanted to be, and I was too far from my family. And that Master was so many months away. After a period of time, I began putting off using the Avatar Materials. Life began to get to me, and frustrations began to build. Lost beliefs reasserted themselves in my life, unafraid of elimination, because I had put the tools (Avatar processes) away. Many things were easier and I had cleared a lot of stuff, but I stopped at a certain plateau of contentment.

Then suddenly I was at The Master Course. I went in wanting to have fun, deepen my experience of the materials, and obtain a license to deliver. What I achieved was far more than that. I achieved the manifestation of all of my dreams.

During the the Master Course, I was enveloped in a sense of family, support, and unconditional love. Even more, although these people loved me, or perhaps because they loved me, they did not permit me to make excuses or wallow in limiting beliefs. I threw myself into a deeper exploration of myself than I ever thought possible. I had a tremendous amount of fun as the Avatar Materials took on new meaning and new power for me. Those last few biggies that were holding me back just disappeared as I created a new life.

I came out of The Master Course with a license to deliver and with a completely new life. Not only did I deliver in the Northeast almost immediately, but I also created a successful freelance writing and editing business. I fulfilled a lifelong dream by writing a book. I am currently working on the next book. A magazine I had been trying to crack with articles for four years wrote to me requesting a series of articles. Although we have our moments, I love being home with my son. He is an amazing teacher and a lot of fun. And to top it all off, my entire family is living in our own homes about two miles apart in New Mexico, where we have wanted to live for fifteen years. For me, Avatar has been about cleaning out old beliefs that have been limiting me and causing me to lose control. It has meant trusting that the abundance of learning and joy in the multiverse is available to me whenever I decide to focus my attention on it. And the results have truly been Manifesting Dreams.

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