“What a
relief to finally show up for my life!”
Judy Smookler, whose background is in keyboard
performance and editing/publishing, lived 21 years in a spiritual community in
western Canada, the Canadian headquarters of the international Emissary
program. She and her husband Norm now live in Vancouver, Canada, where she runs
a small conference center and teaches Avatar.
It was
the Spring of '92. My husband handed me a CREATIVJSM book and said,
"You might want to look at this..." I briefly scanned the book and
huffed, "There's nothing new in here. I know all this stuff." Then he
took the course and I started noticing that something had changed. He started
listening to me in a different way, and he didn't make me feel wrong about things.
The hard edges softened between us and I wondered if he knew something that I
didn't. We spoke about my taking the course. I got my life back with Avatar®.
No one else had it -.it's just that I didn't. People had classified me as an
unusually happy person. I had spent over 20 years living in a remarkable
spiritual community. But something still felt ruffled and incomplete inside. I
had so devotedly given my life to serving the planet and I had been so
scrupulous about adopting the noble values, goals, lifestyles of family,
friends, husband, saints, and spiritual teachers. Why was I not completely at
peace??
With Avatar I examined
and experienced who I had become and who I wanted to be. I suddenly had the
tools to modify whatever I chose. I saw and felt the miracle of being a
creator, and I appreciated all my creations.
I started being present
in my life. I had been living on automatic, loving some things, hating others,
feeling the path was irrevocable and I had to cope the best I could. I spent
the greater part of my existence judging myself
But when I experienced
myself as SOURCE of my experience, everything else changed. An adventure began.
Avatar was a doorway to a different life. I've gone back and recaptured dreams
that were never fulfilled.
What a relief to finally show
up for my life! It just keeps getting better and better.