“I
couldn’t believe how the real experience came so easily”
Byong Kee Lee, a dentist in Seoul, Korea, has translated Krishnamurti, Maharish and “Zen of Seeing” by Fredrick Frank into Korean. He has sought Enlightenment all his life through reading and involvement with spiritual disciplines.
While I
was on my AvatarŪ Course, I was doing an exercise with a partner and it was fun
and had many laughing moments. I was doing all kinds of things to exaggerate
what I was feeling - clapping my hands, trembling, moaning, nodding, running,
and always came back to what I was really intending to create. Suddenly a
silence, a deep silence, I felt inside of me. A moment ago I was exhausted, now
I am suddenly alert and aware. Something is happening in mc. First it is a
sensation of small ripples of delightfulness and it grows bigger and bigger and
stronger and stronger, until I can’t bear it, and it becomes waves of Bliss, an
overwhelming Bliss.
I felt almost faint -
completely drunken with the Bliss. What had happened? Where am I? I had no
sense. It had dawned on me, maybe this is IT, maybe this is IT! Oh, my God!
All my life - from the
time I cannot remember, I kept saying to myself this is not it, there has got
to be something more. No matter what I had achieved, it involved hard work,
praise, fame, money, a little power. The painful sense of "this is
not" always made me struggle inside and I went deeper into my thinking,
reading and writing. I became involved in several spiritual courses, each time
with the expectation of "this is the last." Yet something inside me
was crying.
I had been proud of
myself for being such a noble man of searching, but each time gelling more
hungry for real experience. But where is real food, not just menus? I had been
hungry for 30 years!
I couldn't believe how
the real experience came so easily! But the bliss and tremendous sense of
liberation was there and when I looked at trees and sky, they were also in joy,
and laughing back exuberantly. Tears flowed. "Why had it taken so long?
Why had it been so hard?" Then I knew, it was that way because I had
created it that way
One other amazement was
that after I returned home to Seoul, I read a book by a very well respected
teacher and found that he was telling of my experience.