Living Deliberately
      Is it
            really
        OK
                        to do
              that?

by Rich Brenckman

My childhood memories include several instances in which I was scolded for a certain willful attitude that I displayed. The scoldings usually included the comment, "You did that deliberately, didn't you?" The consequences for being willful and deliberate were not pleasant. I came to learn that deliberateness was not good in a "good boy."

Of course, I didn't stop doing the deliberate things. It's just that when questioned, I denied them. And afterwards, even though I generally enjoyed these creations, I felt bad and guilty and took no responsibility for them.

So, as childhood continued, a trend developed. I became more analytical and thinking oriented and began to experience less. (I spent more time in my head and less in my heart). I'm not saying that my parents set out to deliberately inhibit my abilities at an early age, but my creating abilities did suffer. Lots.

As an adult, my experiences in life were ultimately dissatisfying -whether or not I produced the results that I set out to. If I didn't succeed, I felt like a failure. When I did succeed, my adopted beliefs about willfulness and deliberateness made success feel unfulfilling. So even my wins, which were not uncommon, didn't feel like wins to me. That's what I mean by suffering.

Then in 1990, 1 did Avatar. Wow, what a wake-up call! At first, it seemed a bit shocking to imagine that beliefs of mine were actually creating the dissatisfaction I was constantly experiencing. I had always thought that someone else was doing it to me. Was it possible that. I was actually doing it to myself? Intellectually I said, "Naaah." But at a deeper level of feeling, one that I'd almost lost touch with, I knew that it was my own beliefs that were the cause of my own suffering.

Luckily, the first thing I learned in the course was how to quiet the mind (even mine!). Quieting the mind allowed me to examine my beliefs dispassionately, without resistance. I learned how to operate from a level of source consciousness, rather than the level of ego and personality that I'd previously existed as. The Avatar tools and techniques that I learned allowed me to change the beliefs that were limiting me and then to create the things I'd always wanted in life but thought were impossible. Pure magic.

In retrospect, it seems that Avatar didn't really teach me something new. It just showed me how to finally be who I already was -- Myself. I discovered another me, one that had always been scared and in hiding. I became a me that I'd always dreamed of but had given up on being.

I've heard it said that the age of miracles is gone. Not for me. The results that Avatar showed me how to create in my life are miraculous. I say that without reservation.

Actually, the end of the course was really just the beginning. I've continued to use the Avatar tools successfully ever since. It's been over ten years, and they've never let me down. And I've never been disappointed. In fact, I am totally satisfied.

Rich Brenckman is a Star's Edge Trainer in San Diego, California. He delivers The Avatar Course at all points on the globe. He can be contacted at 888-753-2121 or Avatar@PlanetAvatar.com

Avatar Overdrive    Archive    In This Issue

Avatar Overdrive    Archive