In the year since I completed The Avatar Course, I have recovered a precious jewel that was lost for many years. How many of you remember your childhood days when you would feel sorry for someone who was being picked on, try to protect someone weaker than yourself, or cry when a friend moved away?
What happened? Maybe your story sounds something like mine: I got older and I got angry at the injustice of the world. How could we treat each other this way? Who was responsible for this mess? Why wasn't my life easier and more fulfilling?
Of course, I found many who were responsible, but none of them was me! I blamed the greedy corporations, the competitive capitalists, generations of incompetent leaders, organized religion, misguided education, heartless bureaucrats, abusive parents, abandoned inner children and anything else that didn't fit with my idea of a peaceful and just world.
All the while, the burden of judgment and frustration continued to build and debilitate my mind. Finally, I moved to a remote location, far away from what I viewed as the madness of humans, and began my inner search for the meaning of life.
Somewhere in the ten years or so of searching, I began to notice how I had become just like those I had been judging. I was greedy for answers, judgmental against injustice, self-absorbed in my search, and cruel in my indifference. I didn't like how this felt and to make matters worse, the world wasn't changing despite all of my criticism.
I wanted to change. I tried meditation, sweat lodges, listening to gurus, reading books, communing with nature; all these things helped, but there was something that remained stuck. Something in my mind that would not let go.
I felt a resurgence of life energy. It was as though a
weight had been lifted from my shoulders and the
shackles unlocked from my heart.
When Avatar first appeared in my life through my wife, I criticized the books and the Avatar Journal, I criticized Harry Palmer, and finally, I criticized the course as I was taking it. I just knew through my belief filter that the world was full of charlatans and that this Avatar group was a bunch of charlatans if I ever saw one!
Well, somewhere around the fourth or fifth day of The Avatar course, I recognized that I was the source of all of my criticism. The Course was not about my Avatar Master, the Avatar Materials, or Harry Palmer. The course was about ME, and how I was creating my own world-a world I had grown to like less and less. I saw HOW I had been creating my life and HOW I could change it!
I felt a resurgence of life energy. It was as though a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and the shackles unlocked from my heart. I looked over at my wife who was reviewing the course with me. She looked, well, less critical, more compassionate. As I completed the Identity Rundown, all my ideas about people I had resisted began to melt away. I was flooded with an undescribable peace and a feeling of love for all of humanity.
Miracles continue to happen. Old friends have appeared, family ties have been reestablished, my marriage has improved, new friendships and alliances have formed. I now contribute to a more compassionate world with the help of many friends. I am no longer frustrated by the size of the job or judgmental of the world. I now take full responsibility and am in the best possible position to effect positive change. I have fallen in love with all of humanity ...... again.
John Sauvage is an Avatar Master/Wizard from Washington state. He can be reached at 877-282-8277 or
avatar@rockisland.com. You can also visit his website at
www.johnandramona.com
Volume XIV Issue 4